December!

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Assallamualaikum and greetings folks!

it’s December of 2016 and in few more days we are going to 2017!

summary of what i have been doing to my blog within 2016

  1. log in to blog every 3monthly basis
  2. hoarding drafts, dunno when its going to be published
  3. occasionally post something. occasionally.
  4. keep on giving blank stare to dashboard , not even bother to type in the drafts despite having loads of things to spit out from my haywire brain. haiyooo…
  5. as usual, on december/ january i will post something that sounds ” i promise to post more thing in the blog, lets go with 3monthly basis, no… lets go monthly, eh try challenge myself lorh, lets go with weekly…” meh…*sob sob*

Alhamdulillah,

my 2016 so far had been eventful, merry, sorrow at times…but am glad to be given opportunity to live at the moment, Alhamdulillah…

may Allah bless the future, and let me become even better person as i was. Ameen…

so….

lets do better next year yok!

haha…

Happy new year!!!

 

ortho #1

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xray conference

me: this xray belongs to a 25 yrs old male, alleged fall from stiars, sustained anterior dislocation of the shoulder. CMR done to this patient, and this is xray post CMR.

specialist: so, what is CMR, X?

x: Close Manual Reduction

specialist: so, got close AUTO reduction, ah?

me and x: krik…krik…krik

 

CMR= Close Manipulative Reduction

 

be kind

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Greetings, folks.

It’s always in my belief to be kind to those who’s sedated. who unable to reply anything when asking etc. i usually will greet and told the pt that i will take his/her blood despite being sedated. some will frown on me, as they said “patient tak tahu pun”. but I always belief, as long as he alive, his consciousness still around. Though I never knew how it is, until, I spoke to a patient of mine.

image courtesy to Google Image

She was newly diagnose with Hodgkin Lymphoma last year and just started with chemotherapy. she was diagnosed last year at late stage, with complication of superior vena cava obstruction with pericardiac effusion. Pericardiocentesis was performed, however complication occurs resulting rupture of the ventricle in which proceed to thoracostomy. Miraculously, as Allah will, she survived.

She told me her experience after being told about her diagnosis, how devastated she was and her experience when intubated and sedated. Indeed, she can’t open her eyes, nor moves. But she listen and knows. She appreciate what the nurses did to her, as they always greet her and informed her if they want to clean her up, do the bedding, etc.She listens to those who visits her. She receives blessing from people around. She’s grateful and in debt. Now, she’s underwent treatment with positive vibe, not giving up her life, as she stills have her newborn daughter and close-knit family.

So be kind, colleague. Even though they are sedated, unresponsive, they still human.

Changes

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changes.

am filled with anxiety.

remembering that when I first away from home to study, went to MRSM Qber (Kuala Berang), Terengganu. Let alone friend, there are only a few student comes from Johor.

Then when I went to matrix tangkak, muar for a few weeks, only a male friend that i know of went there. Practically alone.

Later, I went to KMB , there also only one friend that i know of, and a male one. so…again, am relatively alone.

At KMB, i met friends, which later on become closer closer when we went to CZ, to study for 6 years. and never felt alone anymore whenever am in a new place.

6 years passed, and I’m being comfortable of having people that i know of around me. i feel ‘secure’.

now. reality hits.

i’m in a new phase. soon, I’ll be a newbie at a workplace. with no one that I know.

again… am alone.

ok, i lied.

I did know few people working there.

My seniors, my friends. (and I did keep on pestering them to ask around about the new workplace)

What i mean is that, I had no friends that will come to work together with me at the new place. hoho…

because i was too used, having people i know whenever i’m in a new place, it kinda gives me in a safe zone. (if that make sense)

Realizing the situation that I am now, it gives me anxiety. Don’t get me wrong,  it doesn’t mean i can’t be independent, but, i know when i’m in that kind of situation, adjusting to new places and all, i became so “focus”, (read: blank), that i can never recall what i did in the first week where i was at.

i need to learn to enjoy this kind of anxiety more. fuuh…

oh well…

now on mission of making friends. wish me luck!

side note:

  • I’ll be a houseman at HSAJB starting early March.
  • next week I’ll have to attend the PTM (like induction) for a week at AFamosa, Melaka. There, the mission will commence! cari kawan, yok~
  • lonely much…